Return

Wow, it's been awhile since I've posted on my blog...over a year. And it's amazing to read the posts that I put up. Even when I didn't want to work on recovery, I still posted on my blog to help give myself some hope and motivation.

I'm happy to say that I am much further along in my recovery than I was when I had created this blog. Sure, my anxiety is still really high; but, I am more aware of the rules in my life that the excerpt from Life Without Ed talks about. For example, I still have a rule about how much I can talk in conversations with certain people. How little I should say. If I say any more than the limit - I get in trouble. If I say less - it's okay. Similar to my eating disorder...if I eat less during the day, Ed congratulates me. If I eat even a tiny bit over my meal plan, I get a mental ass-whooping. Not anymore. Or, not as often, at least.

I now have a job as a host at a restaurant, and I also got another job working with disabled students on campus (yay!), AND I'm taking classes this semester. I don't remember the last time I was able to do so much at one time. It feels great! And it's all because I'm using common sense, but also taking care of myself nutritionally. I still have fear foods; I still fear calories. Those fears are not the same though as they were in the past. If I think about it, developing my eating disorder took many years... I can't expect myself to break free from it right away (although, that's what Ed wants me to think).

Since I'm just getting back into the groove of blogging, I'll end here for the day. There's much to be thankful for, and I am so grateful to have such an amazing support group that I've created from those close to me.

Here's a video of one of my favorite yoga poses to help release any tension you readers may have!

Namaste